Pain Again ...

I felt this when I was leaving my country, my parents, my house and now it is coming back- An awful feeling of leaving people.
These three years have meant a lot to me. I have come across many people, learnt a lot from them.
To be honest, I am known as an introvert, busy with my own things not related much to the outside world. But for the past few months, I met few people who have not just pulled me out of my world but also showed me a very different aspect of life. Amazingly, they were in my life when I needed friends around, unknowingly they helped me heal and stand again. I was never so close to anyone.

The day I received my offer letter, I was excited to tell my friends as I have achieved what I wanted.
I was in my living room, my friends were all surrounding me and only one thing came to my mind “I am leaving”! That moment took me back three years when I was standing in front of my parents telling them about my intentions to come to US.

I just wanted to stop there, not tell anyone, just shut myself up, actually just not go. Soon the news spread, people have started congratulating me and I always have a grin in my face. Feelings like, “they just want me to go”, “why are they so happy that I am leaving” has started rushing in my mind. I know my friends are happy for me and are trying to support me, but right now I just need someone to hug me and say don’t go.